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Fri, 19 Apr 2013 12:08:54 -0400

Moving on, see ya Tumblr! I’ve gotten the privilege of getting to know some nice ppl, I’ll miss most...

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 16:03:03 -0500

Moving on, see ya Tumblr! I’ve gotten the privilege of getting to know some nice ppl, I’ll miss most of you.

smokeporch: GIRLS ONLY, jk kinda!

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 17:56:20 -0500

smokeporch:

GIRLS ONLY, jk kinda!

smokeporch: GIRLS ONLY, jk kinda!

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 17:55:25 -0500

smokeporch:

GIRLS ONLY, jk kinda!

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Tue, 25 Dec 2012 17:53:34 -0500

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Tue, 25 Dec 2012 17:52:25 -0500

First a random call on Saturday night, after not hearing from her in almost a year. Now, I get texts...

Mon, 24 Dec 2012 13:16:46 -0500

First a random call on Saturday night, after not hearing from her in almost a year. Now, I get texts that mentions the call and accidental call back which she happened to receive. She happens to still use her favorites words as well, “I Kinda don’t remember” I’m sick and I’m not in the mood for this, I already dislike this holiday and I don’t want the memory of her making things worse for me. Those fucking words, oh how I hate them.

My state exam is tomorrow and as I was getting myself ready for bed, I was more concerned of not...

Thu, 20 Dec 2012 00:58:23 -0500

My state exam is tomorrow and as I was getting myself ready for bed, I was more concerned of not being in a school environment anymore. The real world is a scary place but its an inevitable destination for everyone and its time to go back unfortunately.

I won’t be seeing my crush anymore :/ but its ok. She was taken anyway. The temporary friendship made this class a better experience. I’ve never had luck keeping in touch with class mates and its not because I’ve tried, I might just not a make a big impact on these ppl to have me in their thoughts.

Returning to the madness just means that I have to stay focused and regain what I’ve lost and improve myself in order to survive. The job hunting, the volunteering, the exercising, it all begins again. Well, the volunteering will be something new but it’s something that will help improve my newly gained skills

Social networking sites will be the death of me.

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 14:59:51 -0500

Social networking sites will be the death of me.

This may be a farewell or a good night. I’ll guess we will find out later on.

Sat, 15 Dec 2012 04:58:31 -0500

This may be a farewell or a good night. I’ll guess we will find out later on.

Brain is working on overtime. The spontaneous flashbacks have me drinking my sorrows away. First...

Sat, 15 Dec 2012 03:57:40 -0500

Brain is working on overtime. The spontaneous flashbacks have me drinking my sorrows away. First time taking shots alone. With the stress from my school, life, family, and undetermined future, I guess there’s a first time for everything. Gotta thank that fact that I had a bottle of tequila at my place lol. Drinking at a bar alone would be an all time low

It’s relatable

Sat, 15 Dec 2012 01:14:41 -0500

It’s relatable

Over thinking things once again. My brain is going into pointless scenarios and for what? It’s...

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 01:59:54 -0500

Over thinking things once again. My brain is going into pointless scenarios and for what? It’s not going to change the present, my past or my future. These constant reminders about my past just find a way of getting to me. I guess it just sucks to have such bad memories during a time that should be of joy and accomplishment. The stress, the holidays, and the constant bullshit I get put into by my attempts just make matters worse and adds to my emotional state at the moment.

Got hit with two harsh realities today. My brain is still not functioning from the impact they had...

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 02:24:51 -0500

Got hit with two harsh realities today. My brain is still not functioning from the impact they had on me. A very sad and frustrating day for me.

This city is filled with memories, mixture of good and bad. This new area where I’m working at...

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 15:56:23 -0500

This city is filled with memories, mixture of good and bad. This new area where I’m working at brings back unwanted memories. I lost myself during that summer. Still trying to recover from the consequences that resulted from that summer.

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Fri, 16 Nov 2012 09:10:22 -0500

Eh, shit never changes for me. Wanting something that’s not obtainable is like torture.

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 16:58:27 -0500

Eh, shit never changes for me. Wanting something that’s not obtainable is like torture.

easier said than done

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 08:30:11 -0500

easier said than done

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Fri, 09 Nov 2012 12:17:00 -0500

So I just quit my job. Have a bittersweet feeling about it. This EMT course is no joke and it’s...

Fri, 09 Nov 2012 02:48:29 -0500

So I just quit my job. Have a bittersweet feeling about it. This EMT course is no joke and it’s kicking my ass. My job was bullshit though and there were two people I couldn’t stand working with. I’ve had a job lined up since August but its taken thenma while to get things finalized and I will finally start training on Monday. My gut is telling that this new job will not be able to fully accommodate my school schedule and might let me go. Maybe I’m just over thinking it. I feel like crap right now, think I might be getting sick and I wasn’t able to get much sleep last night.